I know I write about the horrible truths about abuse and the monster at the helm of it. But I believe in love. And not ONLY the kind between a man and woman, but love for all. I try everyday to put a smile on the face of those that do not violate me. I succeed almost 100 percent of the time. In fact my tolerance for non love, cold heartless individuals, after abuse, is nil to none. And I will not accept less for myself. Love is not an imposition. It is not a burden, encumbrance, strain, or bother even though some see it that way. Those that see it in a negative light will never have it or achieve it. I feel love everyday. I am grateful it is all around me. In a home of abuse you do not feel that. Richard Zona (Jr.) would force and demand sex whether I was ill, tired, or I simply wanted to read a book. I was not allowed to read. Abuse was an imposition and a violation. Abuse was a burden on my life. Abuse was an encumbrance, Abuse was a strain, and way worse than a bother. That was not love. I married a man that did not love me and I will never, ever do it again. BUT Love is all around me and it feels amazing. Thank you world!