After watching the documentary about Lorena Bobbitt on Amazon Prime I felt heartbreak, sadness, but then happiness that another woman who survived the depths of hell of an abusive relationship, rebuilt her life. Domestic abuse is not sane, it is crazy making, and you feel hopeless. I am so fortunate that I did not quite reach the depths of hopelessness and hell that Lorena did. I came close. Do not get me wrong, MY LIFE WAS HELL as my abuser Richard Zona Jr. told me I had to meet him in a parking garage on Violet Lantern, in Dana Point, and have sex with him (lick his ass was his prerequisite to feed our children, I never did it, and my hell was made worse), to get my court appointed, and my legal half, of a double digit years marriage, in order to feed OUR children and give them a stable presence in my home. Richard Zona Jr. did not want that. He desired to torment, torture, and hold me hostage, sexually, financially, and emotionally because he is evil. And Lorena Bobbitt’s husband was evil too. In the days before she chopped off his penis, she was bruised, shaking, and an emotional disaster. Everyone told her to leave but then the HELL gets worse. Like me she married and loved a monster. Like me she went away for many, many, years and slowly re-built her life into a loving, caring, healthy world. And like me, she THEN told her story. I want justice. I was 19 when I met my monster. Lorena was in her early twenties. It is not going away. And for the billionaire boys fraud club (John Paul DeJoria and crime affiliates) that piled on me for nine months straight when I began to reveal MY STORY, I want justice. I will not stop until it is righted. EVER. I recently read an article about Aly Raisman and how she feels pain every time she hears another abuse story. And like me, she hears, “We get it. Just stop talking. He’s in jail.” You can’t EVER forget what monsters do to you in an abusive situation. And in my case my monster, Richard Zona Jr. is not in jail. He still holds what is mine and has made no effort to apologize for the monster he is. THAT MAKES HIM A MONSTER FOR LIFE. Lorena, good for you. Lorena good for me. I DESERVE MY JUSTICE. I WAS A VICTIM OF SEVERE ABUSE SEXUALLY, EMOTIONALLY, AND FINANCIALLY. I was a victim of fraud, forgery, harassment, terrorization, and corruption. AND I SURVIVED. BUT I DESERVE JUSTICE.