I decided that after spending half my adult life with my ex abusive husband Richard Zona Jr., and ten more years rebuilding my life after everything he stole and tried, until today, to kill me without killing me, I DECIDED I AM THE ONE TO TELL IT. I decided to tell what it feels like to wake up to a man punching a hole in your bedroom wall at 5 a.m., a demon, because he found one black sock matched with a dark blue, once in twenty years. And then…. because you live in fear, you wake the children, feed them breakfast, and take them to school without anyone on the planet knowing what happened. You have a panic attack driving home and no one knows that either. You live as a ghost in your own house to avoid what will happen to you if you even speak out. I am telling what it feels like to fall asleep watching “Casablanca” on the couch and waking to Richard Zona Jr. pulling my hair and waking me up from a deep sleep to fear ” Tracy, you didn’t come to bed and have sex with me last night, call the Baker’s, you tell them your not going to their party.” I called the Bakers as ordered, and then I drove my kids to school. No one knew. Or being told ” I’m not paying for marriage counseling unless we have sex everyday, forced.” No one knew. “Tracy you are not allowed to read a book in bed at night to wind down, inform yourself, BECAUSE I HAVE TO HAVE SEX EVERYDAY.” Forced sex…of course it was forced. No one knew. I AM TELLING IT. AND I WILL CONTINUE TO TELL IT ANYWAY I CAN. Watch out for that CHARISMA. Don’t forget Drew Peterson who in listed others to help him, a police officer, smiling to the media and cameras and waving. They have never found the mother of his children Stacie Peterson. He killed her, likely put her in a barrel, maybe even with help, and went on about his days. Richard Zona Jr. and his crime wave have done EVERYTHING in their power to STOP ME FROM TELLING IT. I have survived another year, after being hacked and I AM TELLING IT.
** What no one wants to tell you IS very few even care, especially judges and your children who see you as weak while your navigating through a minefield every single day in your own home, and even if you have family that does, it is so difficult and confusing, they do not know how to help you.
****WRONG! I AM NOT WEAK nor am I the “Stupid Mom” that didn’t have wifi for awhile while I was rebuilding my life.
*** Don’t kid yourself as you are on your OWN…..but you will make it.
*** Thank you to the screenwriter who is amazing with his words. I tell him how it feels and he takes it two steps deeper as sometimes his words are crushing blows.